Silence- what scares me most and what I most desire

Title: In the Silence
Artist:Jason Upton

Tired of telling you, you have me
When I know you really don’t
Tired of telling you I’ll follow
When I know I really won’t
Cause I’d rather stand here speechless
With no great words to say
If my silence is more truthful
And my ears can hear how to walk in your way


In the silence
You are speaking
In the quiet I can feel the fire
And it’s burning, burning deeply
Burning all it is that you desire to be silent, in me


Oh Jesus can you hear me?
My soul is screaming out
And my broken will cries teach me
What your Kingdom’s all about
Unite my heart to fear you,
To fear you’re holy name
And create a life of worship
In the spirit and truth of your loving ways


Jesus,
the cry of my heart is to stand before you-completely bare and honest. To be humble- knowing I am a sinner, but confident- not in who I am, but in who YOU are. I want you to have my whole heart and for me to be so completely captivated that I can do nothing but stand in silence. I am not there yet, but my heart aches for that day.